Essences of Her Soul

Understanding.

2012-01-24T15:49:00.001+08:00

It always starts with a 'Why' and ends with an explanation for every matter that we are facing off. Agree? I myself quite agree with the statement, and that's how I settle stuffs. Now, it doesn't apply at all. Tried so hard to mend the problem, and the outcome sucks. I don't even know what the person is claiming for when I had already told everything. How much guilt I'm having on my shoulders because of that.

People always think and care about themselves, assuming that they are the worst victim of the case. How about the second party??You didnt ask, you don't even care about her feelings, her condition. How many difficult times she had been through. You don't bother. All you want is to get your priorities right and that's it. Grown up to be an adult, we are not here to blame the causes to the case. We just need to solve it without sacrificing anyone's toleration and feelings.

Frustrated.

Anyways, CNY is here so let's celebrate!!!!!!!! Hope that everything will be alright in this new auspicious year!!Bless me and my family with the greatest stuffs ya!!!

Hereby wishing everyone to have an Awesome Dragon Year and may everything runs smooth for all of you!!
Best of luck, joy, health and wealth!!

And it cycles again.

2011-12-06T16:23:00.001+08:00

Its been awhile, really awhile since my last update on this piece of blog. Lots of things has been going on and on for these few months, be it in working real hard for my exams, handling stress, vacation to Kuching and semester break in the mean time. Had the best time of my life as usual in these moments, though there were harsh and bitter times, but my life is once again be made even wonderful, I'm much supposed.

The day after my last day of exam, strolled down to MidValley for the "You Are the Apple of My Eye" movie. Rewinding back the days before the movie, I thought its going to be some sort of very random love stories, where the man and the lady would eventually be happy ever after, and set the ending. As usual, the movie started. Since then, I was absorbed entirely into it. How simple a love can be but end up, things went away from how it should be. If only 柯騰 listens to 沈佳儀's feelings during their first date, everything would be so different. Its the way how their love blossoms which of course, provokes everyone to once thought of how their young loves were like that too. Indeed, even I. Such a good movie. A memory for me.

經過這套戲，我自己覺得的是有時候，有些東西，注定不是你的。。怎樣都好，都不會屬於你的。可能，人生本乃就不會那麼的完美。

可能，只有在平行時空。。他們是在一起的。

“那些年，我們一起追的女孩”——他收入了大家最珍貴的中學回憶。

Feelings for Days after Today.

2011-07-03T22:18:00.002+08:00

It was indeed fast enough to have all my holidays brought away by the wind, with me staring on their bye-byes while they drop me the workloads, learning, monotonous studying. These six weeks of holidays were the best days I ever made it for myself, with the 4D & 3N vacation we brought about in Singapore, outings, chatting sessions. A lot that we had shared, being in our deepest feelings, emotions, complaints, moments with our loved ones, gossips and what else, bonds among the buddies of our very own.

Tomorrow would be another Semester ahead, SEMESTER 3!!!!Looking forward to all the workloads and learning sessions..Told them that I gonna rock them up real great!This semester I named it as tough, heavy, fun, exciting and satisfied. The coming four months are going to fill up all my days with the best knowledge and little procrastinations , which they are good aren't they? Hopefully, everything would turn out great with the best results!

The Orientation Week for the juniors will be commencing real soon for the week after this...Oh my, but the game plans are still in probation. Gotta get them prepared or else we would be the ones being 'well-treated' later.Feel so great to get involved with the orientation this year with lots of experiences and fun gonna be shared and raised.

May everything be the best for the days after today..Gonna Rock them up and make the best for myself!!
Have to stop here.Singapore trip's diary will be up real soon. Nites people!

Officially and yes, official.

2011-06-06T21:42:00.001+08:00

I'm officially a Year 2 Pharmacy Student now!!!

Second semester exam results were out last friday. Waited for a couple of hours before I could hold the results slip, tear along the perforated lines on the paper, peep at my CGPA and finally, had my eyes on all the grades.

Couldnt express more on my emotions, laughed amidst revealing my own fruit of my labour. Just being extremely grateful and exhilirated over what i'd hoped for came rolled down to be mine, as the real thing!!!!!Satisfied.

Past 3 weeks before our Sem 2 exam, lethargy and sleepless nights filled those days. Monotonous revisions, lots of lecture notes, textbooks readings and sample papers were all I could be relying on and to work on to surmount the exam questions. Good enough that I managed to tackle them all and my hard work payed off.

This semester, all of us has passed the exam, as far as I noe, and yes!v made it for ourselves!!Of course, some did not have their expectations meet, but its ok..v have more semesters coming and full force isn't still late for the workouts towards our goal to strive for the title of pharmacist. so,let's do it together guys!

2 weeks of holidays happened to be the history, n there's only 4 weeks left before getting back to the tensed up mode for learning and meeting up with datelines for assignments and quizzes. These 4 weeks would be full of utilisation.

Orientation for the juniors noted the fun, water splashing, games, performances, and social network expansion, which would be somewhere around our second week of Sem 3. Looking forward to it.

Gonna stop here then. Will blog again real soon.

Pacing through Kay Elle's Heart..

2011-05-29T14:10:00.000+08:00

Four girls,
One destination,
One mission,
Lotsa time.

Rush of excitement and crave to Le Vain Boulangerie rooted our deal to spend our lunch there.Took LRT to Bukit Bintang and v went all the way thru Lot 10, Starhill Gallery, Pavillion, Porshe showroom just to that place.

I was a lil bit nervous coz there was no any1 of us who noes the exact location of Le Vain except me who only went there like once?and as i walked thru the streets, the nervousness came worst.im seriously afraid of pickpockets!!!!then, came this indian fella who was in charged with the parking lots at the streets and he was lk 'ah moi, pakai cantik-cantik, pergi mana??' Worst!!!!!my legs were about to run..
further, v stopped at the junction, eyes landed on the Ka Soh fish head noodles restaurant, phew~ I know i found U!!!!Le Vain is just on our left..

Le Vain wasnt very fulled of crowds, but abit of renovations were done for the second floor. Four gals had the different pastas.

I got myself a thai style pasta and a hot chocolate!!!
Once again, got ourselves blended with the tremendous ambience and food.

Then as v roamed around Pavillion, it happened that the Armani's Exchange was having somekind of charity tshirts as aid for Japan. celebrities such as Jojo, William San, Lynn Lim, Carmen Soo, Belinda Chee, Owen Yap were those few who shown their warmest supports for the event there.

Nice day though.

Fresh blog page.

2011-05-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

My new page design..love it!!!

Nites evy1!!

End of It, What I'm gonna do next?

2011-05-25T01:01:00.002+08:00

12.00PM, 23rd May.

How it ended smoothly,gracefully and successfully for my Sem 2 End-of-Semester exam.I've made my greatest efforts, hard work, knowledge, wisdom and concentration for all the papers.Hope that all gonna be good with of course, good results!!!!!

Plannings for this sem break's vacations are all stacked up upon one another to fill up the days with sweetest memories with sweetest buddies-we have the proposed Malacca & Singapore trips, other than gatherings, movies, dinners, badminton sessions, and whatelse, u name it and v have it. With all these, my hols are all filled!

Gonna get myself a new cell phone soon. not to forget, i'll get myself more ladies stuffs..just dunno y, my stuffs just never satisfied my quota.

Those memories flashed back again today. desperately wanna throw them off and regenerate another set of moments with one, but take tons of time and the suitability of the 'one'. feel like throwing all the feelings to the person, but the fear took the better of me. feelings to be kept are not so of good to be in that way after all..they need space to be unleashed too, im sure. decide for me, pls.arrgghh.

Semester 3 are about to commence in July..seniors commented it as disaster and nightmare..frankly speaking, i was a lil freaked out with those frames of word for Sem 3..but its ok, i'll get over it.looks like i have to make my sem break to blend with some early glances for sem 3's modules notes.hahahah.

its now 1.00AM. will blog again real soon. nites ppl.

Sudden thought.

2011-04-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

suddenly the feel for blogging fell on my head..but seriously i dun have any ideas to blog on..i mean that the hectic study life has blunted my personal thoughts on my feelings recently, probably. back to starring at my blog page, i realised that my last post was during the feb where the fury bursted my head.. got no where to spit out all i could, a long list of anger and disappointments scribbled my blog page.. thn i gt it deleted after a couple of hours. hmm, have a thought back on that incidence, i felt kinda relieved now.mayb that i could put the feelings aside for the fella. ought to know to how to accept the fact and different life attitudes after all. sometimes, flashbacks of the our moments together are good memories..of cz i do cherish them..anyways, life has to go on n i have to live my life.

did my practical exam today.stunted with the questions.overall, still ok..hope that evythg goes well.

oh ya, this semester is coming to an end!!!!!its fast man...all i could feel was that i just started my uni lk ytd???anyways, this sem is even more fun thn last sem..i laughed quite alot act..hahhaa..mayb my gang are just too funny??

Ting King's birthday is 2mr and v celebrated with him today...Happy Birthday to Ting King in advance and congrats again!!!guess that it is the best present for u..hahaha..u craved for it so long d la, n now u get it lor!!!u noe wat i mean rite??

recently, alot of ppl around me have themselves in the love river..one come to me saying that she has a bf d, while another guy told me that the gal accepted him..hahhahaa..gratz guys!its really great and warm to have some1 concerning bout the little thgs regarding to u n share ur precious moments together..its just sweet.

questions keep threwing on me lately like 'do u have a bf, miao?'..n i say, 'nope.' YC dun even believe that im stil single..haha..leaving evythg to god i guess..time passes and they will give us the tic whn its my turn. let the fate do the work.

gonna return to my work now..shall blog again real soon!!

LeVain Boulangerie+Gulliver's Travel+Skybar+Xmas+Countdown+Outings=My Holidays.

2011-01-09T14:57:00.001+08:00

A blink of an eye and the tickling of the time yet counting my very end of my few hours of holidays right now! obviously, loads of enjoyment and fun had subjugated my heart throughout all the tremendous moments i had together with the beloved family and friends. awesome memories with awesome people.memorable i named it perhaps.gratefulness and appreciation were all i could reciprocate for the joy v shared together!

LeVain Boulangerie= Breads,pastries, pasta, cakes! Located at somewhere near the Prince Court Hospital in KL.Just loved the whole ambience of the restaurant. food price were still acceptable and i got myself a cup of hot cappuccino, a special french toast, turkey ham+egg bread. the breads and cakes there were savoury though!mayb because of the light effects that make them outshine. but the pasta that Nic and Matt had made me bursted into quite a laugh, as Nic was complaining that he could not satisfied his appetite with that mini tiny pasta!

Gulliver's Travel=Linger in Pavilion for Gulliver's Travel..Nice movie though. in fact, i would have only half a thumb's up for the storyline as the whole script was kinda ridiculous but we had a good laugh with the funny gestures of Jack Black when he was on a war to save the Liliput's citizens.

Skybar=It was such a breathtaking and different view from the 33rd floor of the Trader's Hotel to the mighty, stupendous yet immense, gigantic twin towers!I love it!blaring of the music together with the pool in the middle of entire skybar add the feel of it to the moments there..such a great place, unforgettable...THUMBS UP!i'll definitely make my time there again...

Xmas= Had a barbeque at Chi Yee's house with my buddies..laughed whole night just because of the chicken balls and meat balls that we were chewing all the way..you know what are we laughing at right?
Yan Lin had the best night ever as we made her the Snowman!had a fun time running around the park with the sprays of snow all over everyone..vincent sprayed on my hair too while i was yelling for rescue!but still, Yan Lin was the best..hahahah..

Countdown= Look Out Point; i described as jammed, stuffed with people, packed with cars, expensive set meals, rude waiters who gave me that stupid explanation for being fair to the others, and that i have to leave the table for the other customers turn..what kind of attitude they are trying to show to me now? we are customers ok? Thanks to Ivy, firmed with herself and the waiters could even do nothing to substantiate their stupid reasons to get us out of the restaurant..sat till 12am for the blasting and popping of fireworks over the entire KL skyline..memorable scene!i was totally absorbed to the fireworks while everyone was counting their fingers to 2011! on the way home was the worst, jammed at the middle of the hill, cars were all forced to freeze..all of us barely could move as the whole road down was stucked with cars!

Outings= went for the visit to Pn Tan Tiu Hang's house and had a good chat with her..shared lotsa of her experiences and attitudes in life..hope to see her again very soon. Got ourselves to Murni for the great mamak..i was amazed with the creativity of theirs for the menu with all the funny names they had for their food and beverages!its difficult to reconcile a mamak with the special names they allocated for their delicacies..Nice meal anyway, with awesome Form 6 buddies.

Had my IELTS exam yesterday, kinda satisfied with my approach to the answers..though i made some minor mistakes..anyway, just gonna pray hard for the results!god bless, pls..

Holidays gonna end today and tomorrow is another new commencement for my studies.Come on, im all geared for the challenges ahead and make it an awesome yet perfect journey!

The loads on my shoulder, I had put them down....

2010-11-24T15:07:00.003+08:00

YOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!EVERTHING IS OVER, HOLIDAYS FOR NOW~

I couldnt believe how long i had not been blogging..much of the things that were allocated aside while i wanna put full force n effort for my academic-i couldnt afford to lose any possibilities to achieve the best for my exam!no facebook, no blogging, no outing nothing for d past 2 months..SO ROBOTIC!seriously speaking, a good rest is indeed wat i need for d moment..sleeeep!

i guess the module which got the highest ranking as the PAPER of DISASTER goes to HUMAN BIOLOGY!!!!im sure the others agreed wit me too cz they poured out all their dissatisfactions right after the paper ytd...>.<
its terrible to get details of the body systems to be all stuffed into the little brain..its even worst then my FORM 6 BIOLOGY!

results will be out in the the 3rd of Dec...just cant wait for it 2 be out while i'll be praying really hard for it!God, pls bless me 4 my results!

3 mths blew lk the wind since the raya hols n my buddies are soon be all back to KL!cant wait to see them agn..lotsa to share and laugh! feel lk having trips so much dis time..

oh ya, xmas would be in another mth's time!christina says that v gonna exchange our presents dis yr so...(i should hint her for wat im craving for>.<) prepare for ur budget dear!!!

went to Kim Gary ytd at sunway and it was amazing hw sheng yong ate his spicy noodles in a super big bowl together with the soup ladle!he said that it was lk more of the food for a dinosaur..so sheng yong, DINOSAUR=U???. then, came min hui with her theory of the cheese as the heat insulator to keep the cheese baked rice warm underneath the cheese..this proved hw much the post effects of biology had on us!
lingering round and round in pyramid while the extreme lethargy painted on our faces...it was the fear of returning home that put us into the linger..i gt NOTHING TO AT HOME!!no more revision to be done d..
restlessness replaced my stress nw~

anyway, holidays are commencing by today n im indeed looking forward for all the activities that i'll be up to...superb excitement for fun n relaxations..but b4 i forget, i got to sit for my IELTS!arghh...need to brush up on my language d..its been so long that i had not been doing academic writing so i ought to dig out my vocabs...

for the mean time, LETS ENJOY~
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Refreshed

2010-09-02T14:17:00.004+08:00

It has been dat ever long that i had nt blogged. Guessed that the last post was b4 my uni life has commenced. since evy1 is keen with their blog updates, they put up the encouragements for me.

Anyway, another 10 days is to 2 mths, and this has accounted for the time i had spent in IMU; an awesome uni n avenue for new experiences, new lifestyles, new attitudes of life, new coursemates, new environment and watelse?-new pursue for the pharmacy. its been a 360 degrees turnover for these 2 mths, in comparison to the leisure days for the passed few months,hibernating.being so busy with the increasing workloads-class tests, statistics project,chemistry poster,practical reports etc..arghhh!!a non-stop rhythm securing me to studies,discussions and paperworks.bt im always trying to getting over it, telling myself im capable.n yes, capable!

Was lucky enough to make some great buddies over here.long hours of studies in here made the closer links among us-goin lunch together,sharing notes n laughter,giving care and concerns, exchanging new and old experiences, having good chats and discussions, endless list...frankly speaking, it was really fun amidst all the workloads that v r stacking up on our shoulders..i mean v could extract d sweet part from the bitter in our mouths.

Auditorium

Min Hui with her facebook^^

Part of the lecture notes

Raya hols is up on the corner,coming in 1 week's time..jz cant wait!Form 6 buddies will al b home, back HERE in KL, starting fr this weekend!!n im jz overexcited to c thm again..hmm,lets c who has great transformations after a two month leave..hahahah.

Really miss them al damn much..for u guys there, my Form 6 buddies, who r nw reading this post of mine, i have always wanted the time 2 b rewinded back to our Form 6; its of really sweet,sour n bitter that v had tasted together n im sure that v would never mind to taste them again rite??great moments there, n it always had brought me to appreciations whenever they cross my mind.INDEED!!

Suddenly thought of my bday surprise this year..Kar Yee gave me a surprise with *special guests*-Crays,ChianPing,Sime,Benjamin Button..really felt so grateful n exhilirated for their efforts..thanks guys!!Talking bout my bday, a card without sender but oni a bus ticket dated on my bday reached my letterbox..initially, i was puzzled by the intention of the sender, which then later i figured out who was it. thanks to him a lot for the creativity n willingness to take up all the troubles just to wish me..u guys indeed had made me another set of sweet memories.=)

It just make me feel bad.

2010-07-01T17:41:00.002+08:00

Seriously,i was asking myself repeatedly why this feeling rules every nerve n vessel connected to my heart..i couldnt explain the ans behind,or mayb i should say that my inner sense hold the truth.. its just that im the one lying to myself..evading from hw it should be..sometimes,of high hope that i put on that i could bring up the courage 2 tell the person hw it feels..bt the state of coward took the better of me..maybe the fate is there 2 set the path 4 us..the future is there bt i believe that things always change..the promises that the person had made, im stil questioning on the authenticity..or its d time that holds the responsibility to prove the genuinity..hope that person understands what im trying to say here... i just felt so bad to let all these behind bt i ought to..hw cn v solve this??or do i really hav 2 let go??

'miao's photography'-I called it.

2010-06-16T16:01:00.001+08:00

yesterday,there was this strong urge in me 2 b in the photography fever n thus i took this few pictures randomly..i was new in photoshop bt jz tried my best 2 use up every drop of my creativity n artistic sense to make the pictures look somesort of the work from experienced photographers..will take more great photos in time 2 come..its more than a thing 2 learn im sure...photography isnt easy!!

World MIlk Day

2010-06-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

"World Milk Day?" We actually have a day for milk?mayb the goodness of milk have to b much appreciated and so we have a DAY for milk!!
i was flipping over the newspapers 2day like usual, while feeding myself nasi lemak 4 breakfast..and it happened that the Dutch Lady advertisment went across my sight.."1st JUNE-WORLD MILK DAY..250000 free packets of milk given out TODAY_by Dutch Lady.."
Hmm..since milk is awared a day to assure its importance, we can have d others to b awarded too..World My Day??or World MiaoLing Day??haha..Great!!!

Padini Group Fair

2010-05-23T14:20:00.000+08:00

Cheap sales are always the best avenue for the people to spend their cash away..however, i dont see the advantage of spending my cash in the cheap sale..i mean the clothings and outfits are all thrown to a huge mountain,all jumbled up and u have to ransack that entire stack of clothes just to treasure some of your desired ones..it may take u a long time as u people who are so COMMITED to their hunting session may elbow n shove anyone that is going against them..anyway, i intended to just look around in the sale yesterday but i gave up in the end cz it was really testing my patience to put myself in the competition with the rest..its of course way better to lay my legs in the Padini shop than to squeeze in the crowd...

Its another weekend again..and im here blogging 4 d sake of blogging..wat im i trying to say??hahah..watever...mayb im feeling restless, so...ok thn, up til here 4 the mean time..have a nice day!

Interview

2010-05-16T15:44:00.002+08:00

8th of May, win zee's msg reminded me that usm's calling 4 interview had started and v could check at the official website.I gave myself a try randomly by inserting my IC no on the space provided and 'POP!!!'.My name was clearly stated on the screen saying the medic interview is on 14th May at the USM health campus, Kubang Kerian,Kelantan. A lil surprise and anxiety channeled into the nerves of mine as i need to travel all the way to Kelantan. after a long struggle and thinking session, i decided to go ahead 4 the interview.

Headed to kelantan on 13th May. waited at LCCT for about 3 hours++ due to the flight delay.i gt nth else to do bt to play and minger around with some small kids to idle my time away.It was just merely a 55mins flight.so, i barely could sleep in the plane.

Kelantan wasnt a urban-like place which kl has used to so common to us..a lot of trees and vr little development i would say.no tall buildings watsoever!!

1 thing i would like to complain bout Kelantan is the taxi fares.it was just too expensive!!!!i almost spent bout 100 bucks with Kar Jun and Mei Qi just to travel to the health campus and airport,k?Next time whoever goin to kelantan, PLS PLS BRING YOUR GPS ALONG AND RENT A CAR THERE, ITS MUCH MORE CHEAPER!!!

Initially, i thgt my level of nervousness would shoot up any higher than i had underwent before as I was seldom interviewed.anyhow,i was more ok than usual..i managed to ans the questions appropriately.din screw up much..satisfied..

Btw, the taxi driver lighted up my mind that "pawagam adalah haram di Kelantan..."hw come??it seems to b so common in kl, i mean..come on!!its just cinema...i wonder hw Kelantan-ians spend their quality life there...bt definitely nt for us as kl dudes.

Anyway, it was a tremendous experience as i have never stepped into kelantan for the past 20 years of mine. something different from KL im sure..

Continuation

2010-04-22T13:19:00.004+08:00

Its been a month that i did not update my blog..nth much happen in this month except the Prize Giving ceremony las weekend..its nth more than jz picture-snapping and chitchatting among friends.it actually ended way far earlier than what i have expected.

1st time been to the PC Fair that day at KLCC..the crowd can b compared to millions of ants hunting for sugar and food!i was elbowed and shoved al the way. kinda frustrated and felt lk shouting at the ppl that 'could you pls walk properly and dont push?'..bought myself a pendrive,cooling pad and a keyboard protector..at least i got sth cheap over there.haha..

Gonna b having a personality test this Saturday at SMK La Salle for the USM admission..they called it MunSyI test..its only a 1 hour test.hope that i can get over it easily!

17 April 2010~

STPM done!!

Pool of Frustrations...

2010-03-25T13:58:00.001+08:00

Scholarships' essays are really taking off my nerves.wat kind of answer they are trying to expect from me, i do not know!!Im just putting up my best..squeeze out my maturity and knowledge, put them in sentences and send them out.after a long period of abandon to my writing, now i ought to dig my writing skills that are like rusting in one corner,pissed at me for not using them such a long time.

Then , there was a misunderstanding between me and a buddy..i was trying to explain my prob,trying to tell that im not in head over heels for that guy and he was forcing me to subscribe to his opinion simultaneously. how i wished i was awarded with the magic wand and shrink him to be an unspoken person, so that he could listen to what i say, silently.felt frustrated over him, din wanna continue the conversation with him at that moment. why people always assumed that they knew evything jz by observations??dun judge the book by its cover;same philosophy, duh!!

Just got my hair cut today..it was actually to make layers to my hair and unthicken the bushy look. kinda satisifed with it though it looks a bit messy. This is just the temporary period for it will grow longer, thn it will look better i hope so.

She's EMPTY...

2010-03-20T14:53:00.000+08:00

its nt fun 2 rot at home at all times..it makes ppl so restless n empty-minded...thgt of looking 4 a job bt the procrastination took d better of me..i was lk contemplating,'if i go 4 a job, its stil vr boring, isnt it?u hav 2 look n b alert with d boss's experessions n emotions al d time as he may scoff at u without any reason(or mayb due to some1 jz spilled sumthing on him n he was terribly angry so he CHOSE me to released his FIRE..hehe)duno..so i delayed on d job looking task..din go out recently wit frens much recently..cz its lk always movie,dinner n karaoke n dats it..cant v jz search 4 sth new??mayb some sports or sth..im always looking 4 badminton matches bt ppl seems busy..arghh..anyway, badminton isnt a 1 man game..no opponent no game..

April is cuming vr soon..its faster thn the wind for hw d days jz went so fast..3 mths jz gone after d STPM exam..bt it seems lk i did nth other thn rest..mz do sth bout it..bt hw?okay,i c hw it works, go dig out sth 2 do..

btw,KHALIL FONG is cuming 2 malaysia dis may 29..i wanna attend his concert in genting so much..i jz knew it ytd fr d newspaper tht he is cuming n i was freaking excited bout it..i had always wanted his concert..at last he is cuming..tickets wil b on sale commencing on 27 march..better look 4 some buddies 2 join me along!!

Marvellous Record Line^^ My History!

2010-03-01T12:21:00.000+08:00

It was d earliest morning dat day for i had never had dat strong instinct to b awake so early..couldnt put away d loads of worries,fear,and anxiety which had been in me for the passed few days since i was brightened with the news dat my STPM results will b revealed on 25 Feb 2010.

The breakfast tasted aweful dat morning..loss of appetite was intensed..luckily i din throw my temper due to the strong rush flow of anxiety..i jz control..tried to..

Reached school at noon..i was so absorbed into my friends' reactions..some felt normal, while some bursted into tears..how bout mine thn??

Havent i enter the d room to obtain my result, my fren told me i gt all As..d fear spread into ashes leaving my soul behind with fulsome excitement,contentment,appreciation n gratitude..Of ultimate excitement dat i had put a beautiful ending to my high school life.

Celebrated dat day unofficially with my buddies who had scored vr well too..felt really relaxed and thankful for wat the GOD had gave me..

Looking forward for more nw..anew journey will commence very soon..awaits d challenges n obstacles in front!!

Life is like a rollercoaster

2010-01-20T07:51:00.000+08:00

rewinding the time behind and i see myself hugging my books all the time, reading and flipping the papers over n over again for answers and additional info, preparing myself for the exam to come..
always burning the midnite oil, no good appetite..sigh..

but nw, i guess im the persson with unlimited of time n freedom,no datelines to meet, no exam nothing..bt post-STPM isnt easy to stand..it entails 101% of endurance...cz its really bored!!!

its lk there is a timetable 4 me..wake up late, thn take my breakfast,continued by tv and its lk my remote controller may want 2 stop working too cz i press on thm too much..thn follow by taking bath n dinner and tv agn..lastly, ended wit the time 4 bed..n the routine circulates agn the nex day..oh god..occasionally, i gt 2 go out n gv myself a break.. otherwise,im really gonna get mad..

there wil b costume party coming this fri for me..went to timesquare ytd 2 search for my costume..after roaming around d entire shopping centre 4 lk almost 4 hrs, i gt myself sth which im satisified with..heard dat there wil b around 50-60++ ppl attending the party so hope to see more ppl there..mayb i could 'hunt' for sth i want..more choices..too bad, some of my buddies nt attending..if oni they could attend, im sure they add colours to the ambience there..

One week after...

2009-12-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

Phew..it had been one week after my STPM exam..feeling so restless like no way on earth as i have nothing up to do with..no books,no stress,no paper works, no deadlines to meet up wit,no more burning midnight oil n etc..went out quite often these few days..ytd was a singing session in midvalley wit my buddies..my voice sounded like a toad after all the singing and yelling in the karaoke session..thank god..it recovered 2day..

it seems dat 2009 is coming 2 an end while the 2010 is being welcomed..
2009 reali means a lot to me n im sure to my buddies too..of cz, there r joys n pains bt dat is hw it brings us up to another level i would say..another level of maturity n experiences..2009 is a blast..d stress is max,d fun is max,d learning is max, nth else could overlimit these..

x'mas is jz nex week..still couldnt figure out how to celebrate yet..mayb a dinner suits d best..or mayb a celebration wit frens?hmm...feel like having a SPECIAL x'mas this year so much!!!

Its So Dead~

2009-10-03T14:59:00.000+08:00

i feel dat its jz so dead for my blog..being abandoned in a corner lk an unwanted child waiting for help n love..anyway,im here 2 scribble on it agn n im nt neglecting it...its been a long time i did nt post up my feelings 4 this period of time cz i have always busy wit my studies n my exam is way nearer thn it shld be..bt i din miss up any gatherings wit my buddies cz i noe i shouldnt..btw, went 2 mv ytd agn for lunch n movie after skul..the movie was quite funny yet scary. it was d 'Where Gt ghost'- a singapore production..it was indeed fun ytd wit ah fai n kar yee..v were having a great time chatting, making our bond stronger..oh ya, 2day is d mid-autumn festival..may all my buddies n my family be strewn wit love n joy in dis celebration..!!

One Month Report..

2009-08-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

dis is my FIRST post after a long procrastination since bout 1 mth ago..hehe..mayb i shld giv a brief report on wat i had been gone thru 4 dis past mth..

basically, i was busy for every weekend since:
4th July-biological workshop on DNA in INTI college
11th July- Form 6 Orientation
25th July- My surprise party!!

btw, las weekend which is d 26th July was my birthday bt i din hav much expectations to hw it would b celebrated 4 me..
if i had nt mistaken, my fren asked me on 29th June for dinner on d 25th July which is my birthday eve..so i jz thght dat it was jz dinner rather than a party..
so thn...on d 25th, my fren fetch me n i expected thm 2 jz hav a dinner with me till i reach a person's hse..at 1st i didnt noe who's hse was it till i saw all my buddies standing in a line at d front of d hse..i was lk 'omg!wat...!!..' once i get down fr my fren's car, evy1 began 2 sang me a birthday song n they showed me their 'presentation'..frankly speaking, i was really freezed at dat moment, both phisically n mentally..hahah..d feeling was so jz so AWESOME n TOUCHED for wat they had did for me...they actually made me a surprise birthday party!!!

its really d best birthday i ever had so far i would say...thanks a lot to those who had planned this entire surprise 4 me..there's nth i can do 2 thank thm 4 wat they did 4 me...really appreciate it...tHX GUYS!!!love ya!!

Update~

2009-06-27T17:40:00.000+08:00

here's a post again..recently was nt dat busy cz exam was jz over...gonna watch transformers 2mr..my buddies said its interesting, exciting, funny, action-filled...so lets c 2mr..

btw, there was dis trend in my class where evy1 is getting an english name 4 themselves except me..my buddies did think of some good names 4 me bt i dun reali favour thm..
Eg: Elizabeth (by sime)
Elaine, Michelle...(by Chian Ping)
Kat(by Win Zee)

i thght of Myolie or Sherrian actually..or mayb Christy...Catherina?im nt sure..haha..those r d ones popped out fr my mind..hw bout Gorgeous??haha..nvm thn...its nt dat important actually..its jz 4 d fun of it..
i had school 2day bt evy1 seemed so restless..sighing 4 maths n our weekend..nex sat goin 4 study tour in INTI college..4 d whole day...hope 2 get something from there..

ytd heard bout Michael Jackson's death..somehow a great STAR had left us n gone 2 where he supposed to be..in a way it mayb a set free 4 him since he is suffering fr heavy debts n sicknesses..

anyway MJ,

*v will miss u n ur music lives forever in my heart..*

Drag Me To Hell....

2009-06-22T05:10:00.000+08:00

another post today...ytd, v held a small gathering at mv..mos of my closest buddies went..reached there around 12 sth noon..heading straightaway 2 cinema once me,yanlin n maywan reached there 2 join munyee, chi e n keat..there were 2 movies 4 us 2 choose,'Drag Me To Hell' n 'The Last House On The Left'..i intended to choose Drag Me to Hell cz i heard dat this movie was kinda scary...haha..at last, v chose dat movie..d starting was nt dat bad..d nightmare started whn the beautiful loan manager did nt giv an extension 2 d loan payment 4 a weird yet ugly old woman...d curse as a revenge 2 d main actress leads to a series of events..d worse part was d disgusting vomit on d main actress by d evil spirit 4 a few shots throughout d whole story..yaksss!!anyway,its a gud movie though cz i yelled throughout d 2 hours in d cinema..haha..
after d movie thn went to edu fair 4 awhile..v ended our gathering with dinner in mv..dats al ytd..al in al nt bad la..kinda tired ytd..hahah..

A full Stop

2009-06-18T07:34:00.000+08:00

Phew~~

exam jz finished 3 hours ago...n dats y im free to scribble a post here..a full stop over d 1 mth ++ torture to me..hahah..basically, b4 dis ends, evything seemed so robotic wit books wit me, no rest, eye bags, tired physically n mentally, no good sleep at nites, no enjoyment, no loitering around, no procrastination..d list is endless...thank god i managed to survive thru these harsh times..i seriously need some good rest..im sure my other buddies think d same lk me..haha..

bt my STPM trial is coming soon though..i guess its around mid September..so, i cant reali play around dat long actuali as i nid early preparations 4 d trial..sigh~
anyway, its time 4 enjoyment nw..recently, there r a lot of movies up on d big screen..cant wait to watch al of them..bt i seriously nid companions.. cz i dun like 2 watch movies al by myself..hahah..mayb v wil b organising a gathering 4 my high skul classmates by dis 2 weeks..(since im free 4 d moment).besides, i want shopping!! i had nt been searching around 4 clothes, heels, bags n etc 4 such a long time...nid 2 make my collections a wider range..omg..too much to do b done after my exam..to fulfill wat a girl has been longing 4 so long..

btw, i wil b getting my chemistry papers 2mr..hope so d results r gud..

n 1 thing dat i knew jz by dis morning is dat Form 6 wil b having tutorial classes starting from July..dis is reali another tiring session 4 us..sigh~~mayb lk wat yan ping said, v shld bring some packets of coffee 2 skul so dat it can wake me up during d noon session...hahaha...

Start of something new~

2009-06-02T02:47:00.000+08:00

wee...woke up very early today though i have my 2 weeks hols dat jz oni commenced..bt d reason behind it was due 2 my chemistry teacher wanting 2 giv us d "Extra Class" for d inorganic chemistry(1st 2 chaps...)basically, all of us were actually reluctant to attend d class as v r already in d holiday mood..haha..thank god dat she managed 2 finish al in 1 shot so v do nt hav 2 attend another session 2mr..yay!!

anyway..i guess i was very guilty over d procrastination for d pas weekend cz i went out on sat nite n ytd wit my frens..d sat nite was for d RELAY FOR LIFE event in Bukit Jalil so i think its quite meaningful cz i hav nvr participate in such events b4..bt too bad i din stay overnite cz i noe my buddies enjoy a lot during d whole thing...nvm thn, ytd i went out wit some of my frens who were d volunteers of dat event..v went for drinks n food n went bac around 6pm..hahah...

since i had spent bout 3 days refreshing myself, its time for me to start work cz i wil b having my biology n maths papers after d hols..my exam hasnt finish yet!!so, al d best to my frens in revising n enjoy d hols!!(im working hard too..hahah)

What r Friends n Life Partner for....??

2009-05-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

18 years n going 2 be 19 in 2 mths time..
no tangible reason for dat i have finish growing up cz im absorbing new experiences n knowledges every moment nw n thn..

regarding 1 aspect that i had learn alot fr its theories n practicals which is social relationship, it awesome whn u hav d fun in it,experiencing it... bt its terrible whn problems arises in betw dat relationship..for d period of las mth til nw, i guess d changes in my friendships do mould d soul of mine to another design of better features n of sophisticated in maturity..its difficult to adapt to the changes at 1st cz i had nt been through those situations..it is also because of some human factors dat made me to lose d communication links dat i used to have wit dat fren of mine...recently,v had zero interaction bt i hope so dat the rainbow is always there after d rain..mayb someday, something wil change??

basically,wat r friends for??a place to seek help?place for comfort n solace?person of cheering up ourselves??or mayb..i dunno...mayb there r more...bt i ithink its a person with those criterias i mentioned all rolled into 1..its actually wonderful wat a fren cn do..they cn b n do anything jz 2 bring d joy n love to u...mayb there r times of disagreements n misunderstandings bt true friendships r sturdy 2 al these..

life partner is borned out of affection dat whn u love sum1, u wan him or her to b ur companion for the rest of ur life...some may believe in "love at a 1st sight" dat leads to their end of finding 'the other half' of them bt i think im more to the aspect of understanding n communication betw dat person n i b4 deciding dat he is d right half of mine which hw d God has created whn d world is set to speed...

life partner means he or she is d one dat wil b having a life of own wit u..sharing of best moments, sorrows, experiences, problems, challenges...all in 1 wit u...they wil nvr let u down bt support u in al ways...they always makes d best for u n r ready to sacrifice for d sake of u...
the communication n bond betw u n him or her is of specialty bcz its eventually leads to the unique intimation of d relationship dat u wont get to treasure it any where else...
mayb some perceptions to this r with differences...bt its depends hw u c it for urself...
i perceive it dat way...

A Test for the Soul....

2009-05-13T08:24:00.000+08:00

ppl used 2 b saying dat sad experiences mould sum1's maturity..i was al d while accepting this saying as sumthing trivial till whn i was in dat situation...recently,many problems were circulating around my loved ones n me which im trying my best 2 give thm the best solutions..i wonder y probs happen in such a sudden,which i myself cant get used 2 it these days..i understand dat relationships n frenships r sumthing dat nids to b cherished, nurtured, enjoyed, n maintained bt different combinations of ppl n human factors makes those difficult to b achieved..mayb i shld brace myself along d facing to all these matters...a test, perhaps...

PS:yp, i noe u cant adapt to d recent changes..i understand hw u feel cz im in d same shoes as u...bt believe me, jz do wat u think u r supposed n correct to 2 do...rmb, life has stil to b go on n v have 2 move 4ward..there r stil a lot of ur loved ones supporting u..lk me!!!!ahaha..jz b strong...

Mass Killing did more GOOD than HARM!!!

2009-05-09T08:33:00.000+08:00

I guess dat dying r nt something 2 b sad n pity of according to how ppl use to b mentioning al d time as long as u live with a meaning for yourself...same goes to the rats ytd!!!

basically, v did a dissection for d white rats ytd for d entire day..mine was a Minnie Mouse bt i stil had 2 end her life so dat she cn let me c d inside of her...haha..

i actually did d skinning n separation of d muscles quite fast b4 my friends had finished...i guess d part of looking out 4 d connection between d small n large intestines was a monotonous n eye-straining session..thank god im able 2 figure out her intestines!

nex, v r supposed 2 remove the whole respiratory system which i did after a long time removing all d connective tissues..lastly, v ended d whole session with Dettol..(sterilising evything including my dissection set)

i guess its great ytd though my Minnie stinks at d end part of dissection..hope she is blessed in d heaven as her sacrifice 4 me is a good deed~~

My Minnie..

waiting 2 b operated..

enjoying ourselves b4 d dissection~~

looks proficient!!

serious at work~

Tired n Busy day but not a REMEDY to a GIRL's sorrow...**

2009-05-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

Labour Day is d happiest day for employees in d whole world cz they had a special rest dedicated for thm..bt for students lk us, its jz rather a free day 4 us to enjoy our own leisure time..

well, ytd, my muscles were all practising anaerobic respiration cz i use too much of ATP roaming around Tanjung Sepat due 2 my parents forcing power to ask me to join thm...
bt stil,i dun hav d mood to enjoy the whole trip ytd cz my thgts was on some1 else...i dunno y dis happens bt all d scenes of my happy moments wit dat person keep playing in me...i try to control myself bt its uncontrollable...y?was my decision on las Thursday a wrong thing?bt i had done it...wat cn i do??u cant turn the clock back...n i noe dat i had seriously hurt my buddy's feelings..im so sorry..i hope dat person is ok..bt im nt ok 4 d moment..i dunno y..after so much i hav done, i noe i have to move forward cz v need 2 b responsible for wat v had done..sometimes,v have 2 sacrifice ourselves to make ends meet...

here r d photos of my tired trip ytd..

my bro n i..

so obsessed...

cool~~

omg...hw beautiful is d sunset...

sunny....bt nice beach!!

Yummy...look at d colour!!

Say cheesseseee!!!!

wow..cn u c d longans??

who finish my coconut drink??

my bro n his coconut....

Mixture of EMOTIONs...unfurling them~~

2009-05-01T08:35:00.000+08:00

i noe dat ppl do hav emotions n its difficult 2 b controlled especially whn they come in great intensities...right nw, my emotions r in topsy turvy..im trying figure out wat i 1 n wat d others 1...i have always try 2 make things gud...bt still it doesnt succeed...god~~
i dunno hw 2 express my feelings rite nw..i seriously nid 2 hav remedies 4 my thoughts..MIAO LING,do sth!!!!argh...

A Morning of MUET...A Night of Fists & Stunts!!!~~~

2009-04-27T04:42:00.000+08:00

after a long stretch of time...here's my post again...anyway, ytd was a tired bt yet meaning ful day cz i did 2 imperative things on d same day!! basically,i was having my MUET exam on d morning while involving in d WUSHU NITE for my school for d whole nite...

i guess i did fairly for my MUET cz i think i hav already done my best..bt 1 thing very irritating was especially during d listening session cz i was already paying fulsome heed to the radio for d voices bt thanks to d church bell which was busy with its ROARING... it really ruined d early part of my listening...luckily,i managed 2 answer d questions after listening 4 d 2nd time..thank GOD...

after my exam has ended, some of my frens were returning home happily while leaving me n some buddies behind cz v were involved in d WUSHU NITE for d ushers...well, i guess ying cheng n i reali did a lot ytd for d ushers cz v were busy with d printings n d tickets till bout 4pm b4 v actuali hav d time for our own...after a short rest n bath..v had our dinner n by 6.30pm, our usherings commenced..

i guess d part of tearing d tickets was reali tiring especially whn d audiences were rushing in..thx to kar jun who was willing to lend me a hand whn i was telling him that my hand was already in pain after so much of tearing..(so touched..haha)..

by 7.30pm,the show started off with drums welcoming d blessings for a gud show...anyway, after all d hard work n sweat dat evy1 had put out, d show was indeed a success...n i ended up wit extreme tiredness n tremendous memories...

i did took some pics with d performers bt i wil b oni uploading d pics later..
al in al..gud show!!

d crews of form 6...

Words by Laziness~~

2009-04-13T05:49:00.000+08:00

feelings of being restless after 2 days of hols due to the GOOD Friday n d saturday were playing lustily in d ambience of my soul 4 moment nw...

2 days jz passed without any signs of significance 4 me as al i was doin is jz lingering with my piles of books n notes...this is reali driving me crazy~~argh...

messy~~

piles of books n knowledges...

btw,i did bad in my audition las fri...
las tues was d day announcing d results, so my buddies n i braced ourselves 2 go n whether v r n d list or nt..too bad..i failed...as i was walking bac 2 my classroom,all d scenes of d practices that i had gone through n my hard work were al in line lk videos displaying in my mind...i questioned myself bout y dis happens bt no answer came bac..y d others can n i cant??it reali took me a long time 2 recover fr this...

anyway, failure does make ppl 2 b stronger, more resilient n dauntless wit challenges bcz they noe 2 b prepared 4 d worst..

bt im exhilirated for d experiences i gained..obviously, my way of actions n thoughts r well upgraded to another level in life fr dis sad disaster i would say...come on, life has still to b go on!!!

'One Step' closer to the world of music....

2009-04-05T04:14:00.000+08:00

this is my 1st post after skul has commenced...all the things have gone back into where it shld b...with my exam results that were already out from d oven, homeworks being given n skul activities continuing from where it has hesitated...bt sumthing very different has entered my way whn this semester has started as i had signed up for an idol competition in my skul..hahah..in fact, i myself din expected 2 join dis bt its my courage who play d whole game..
anyway,ytd was my audition for d grp singing.. if i hav nt mistaken, my audition was at 2 sumthing in d noon..b4 dat, my anxiety had reali gone into me badly..i was reali afraid dat i would b forgetting d lyrics n let my other 2 members down..nvm thn, back 2 d audition situation-as i went in 2 d room..3 of d lady judges were nt dat strict as hw i percieved thm b4 dat..without hesitating, v began our singing..after completing d whole thing..d judges started giving comments.basically, d comments r nt dat bad though wit oni certain mistakes dat v made during d singing..anyway, i was glad with d audition session..i cant believe dat i had actually done it 4 myself...its jz great for 3 of us..
d semifinalists will b announced by nex tues thn...if im in..its reali a bonus to me...jz pray hard for i hope 2 b closer to music...haha

Memorable Outing..deserves a remark in HEART...~~

2009-03-22T15:53:00.000+08:00

it has been ages dat i did nt meet my high skul buddies..bt ytd was very different cz at las v gt d chance to get together n chat all v can regarding d latest news of each other, stories of our own wit different backgrounds, subjects, etc...along our conversations, i realised dat most of us had grown a lot to the extent dat evy1 has began with love attempts n stuffs lk dat...so, i think dat dis is gud as all of us r growing well u c..hahahah..by handling all these cases, im sure v will b more experienced in life...anyway, it was great ytd..at least v get 2 keep in touch with each other..i guess evy1 of us had enjoyed 2 d fullest too...hope dat v will meet again very soon..miss u GUYs!!!!

Mun YEE, me n May WAn..

May WAn n I

SMILE!!!~~~

This is how close v ARE....

My BUDDy...i love her~~

Holidays...its joy has FADED~~

2009-03-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

well,2day is d 6th day of my 1st semester hols i guess..(btw,it is d 6th day..hahah).feelings of being lifeless, boring, too free has gone into me badly definitely. sitting there doin nth except wit my TV and food or SMS-ing with my friends...dats all..
anyway,at least i went 4 an outing at tues with my buddies to Midvalley..reach there around 12sth in the noon if i hav nt mistaken..thx to yuk hoong who cn giv us a ride..our gentleman..once v reached there,my 2 buddies n i started our wild journey by lingering from shop 2 shop for clothes..1st v went 2 The SEED to jz hav a look..thn v went 2 try on a black top..i kind of lk dat top..bt i dare nt 2 buy it cz i nid more opinions on whether its design r fascinating or nt..nvm thn..v continue our shopping till bout 2pm i guess..thn oni d guys came n join us for karaoke at RED BOX, The Gardens..i sacrificed my throat till bout 7.30pm cz i sang all d way till i hav my decision to surrender..later thn, treated myself at chillis restaurant with some buddies..during my dinner, i met another gang of buddies in coincidence..chat with them all d way during my dinner with me crapping..hahah..bout 9sth..d exodus began..i went 2 meet my parents at d ground floor..
btw, something very weird happened during dat moment..my gud fren,ying cheng was in her bad mood in a sudden..i was very worried bout her cz i didnt noe wats wrong wit her..i dun think any1 has hurt her feelings..i hope she is ok nw..
dats my outing so far for this hols..mayb there r stil more 2 come..hope so...bt skul is commencing nex week...too bad...

First TIME of my life~!!!

2009-03-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

right nw, i dunno hw to tell out my feelings cz its kind of weird for miao ling to b blogging here...
previously,i used to b telling my frens dat i wouldnt lk blogging as its kinda boring n lifeless to me..
later,i discovered dat it is actually an avenue for me to share my moments n latest news of mine with all my loved ones..it helps me to keep in touch with my buddies n its a gud place for us 2 understand each other to the fullest..
ok thn...
at this moment..hereby i announce that my blog is officially BORN n its life would b full of colours with me in it!!!!!